I left Scientology in 2012 because I didn’t want to be alone with my mind anymore.
I was being treated like an asshole.
I didn, however, still felt like I belonged.
I couldn’t live a normal life without it.
I started to cry.
I had become numb to the way I felt.
It was like I was in a trance.
I needed therapy.
I spent two years in rehab and I didn`t really recover.
I felt I had let down my friends and family, as well as the church.
I went to my local church in Los Angeles, but the staff wasn`t the same as before.
It felt different.
I stopped going to church.
At first, I was scared.
I wasn` t sure if I should go.
I decided to write a letter to the church saying I was leaving because I was tired of being ignored.
I did so, and I have since written a book about my experience.
I still haven`t told anyone, but I`m starting to worry about it more and more.
My wife, who has been supportive of my decision, told me to keep my mouth shut and keep my distance from her.
She`s always been very open about it and wants to see the whole picture.
She told me that I can have a private life without the church and still be loyal to the religion, but that I should keep my silence and keep in contact with the church members.
I`ve never been able to do that, even though my wife is a Scientologist herself.
I also need to be careful about being honest about the church in public.
If I tell anyone about my story, they might think I am lying.
It`s not possible for me to go back and change my mind.
I want to tell the truth and be honest about what happened.
I don`t want to go to a church with people who hate me.
If anyone thinks I`re lying, they will get angry and hurt me.
I just want people to know that they can be wrong, and that it doesn`t have to be this way.
When I was 12 years old, my mother got an email from a Scientologists group in her hometown in Canada.
It said that she was going to a meeting in Vancouver with about 100 people.
They invited me to come.
I met them at a bar and I asked if they wanted to get a drink.
When the group members came in, they started to talk about how important it was to be in Scientology.
They were telling me that my mom would be very lonely without the organization.
I asked them if they could hold a private meeting for me.
They said they could and that they were just looking for a quiet person.
The next day, I went.
I left my mom and my family.
The first thing I saw was my father and my sister in their pajamas.
They had no clothes on.
I looked at my mom in the mirror and she was still wearing the outfit that she wore to a Scientology meeting.
I wanted to leave, but was too scared to.
I knew that they would not treat me with dignity.
I remember feeling guilty about leaving my mom.
I thought about how I would feel if I had been with them for the last 15 years.
My father and sister had become so involved in Scientology and treated me like a little sister.
They treated me as if I was their property.
They told me they loved me and that I was going with them.
My sister was scared of going back.
She had told me I needed to be with them forever and that she had to stop being alone with me.
It wasn`s true, but she wasn`ts afraid.
She is very religious and loved Scientology.
She didn` t know how she would feel about me going back to her old life.
She has always been open about her feelings.
I have felt that way about all of my family members.
My family has always had a strong religious component to their lives, so I have always felt very comfortable with my family and their religion.
I am very open with my parents, and they have always been supportive.
I believe they will support me when I go back to them, too.
I feel that if I don�t tell them about this, then they might be upset with me and make me feel bad.
It is very difficult to come out of the church because people will always see you as a liability and see you in a bad light.
I need to feel safe to talk to my parents.
I wish they would accept that I am going to come back to the Church of Scientology, even if it means I have to leave them.
They want to see me succeed.
The best way I know to make that happen is to be honest with them and be kind to them.
It won`t happen if I tell them that I have left Scientology because I don’t want them
